Want What You Want

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Throughout my life, I have always felt the need to justify my decisions to others. I guess it's the performer in me, always looking to gauge audience reaction before making the next move. It's not that dictated everything, but rather that they provided some external point of context. 

However, I've realized since that this has been a mistake. Too often, it has effected my decision making process negatively, leading me down the path of least resistance, essentially the path most traveled. This has ultimately led to frustration and a begrudging acceptance of things as they are for the "normal person". 

Recently, I have felt more and more of the pull towards pushing out of this box and into a life that has called to me for so long. Whether it's been cowardice causing hesitation, distraction, or otherwise, I've become aware of the clock ticking and the creep of darkness on the edges of my life. Soon it might too late. It's driven me to unravel the reasons for my hesitation in order to free myself from the bonds of it. 

Through this search, I've come across a myriad of intriguing and useful mindsets and mental frames, many of which I'll be sharing here over the next few weeks and months. However, one the first that I believe bears deep consideration is the need the justify wanting something. When you say the word "because..", you instantly begin to degrade the call to adventure. Why justify? Why not have wanting it be enough? 

In the end, wanting something is about seeing a more compelling future ahead of you than the status quo. By desiring something, you don't owe an explanation, but rather conscious action to make it reality. 

Consider this in your own life. When we feel the need to justify, we start thinking like a PR department, considering how others will "take" what we desire. While I personally don't believe in hurting others if at all possible, why not see "wanting" something as enough to investigate what it would take? That's the very least you owe yourself.

Stop worrying. Stop justifying. Just want what you want. Without apology.