Early this morning, I woke to my bedroom bathed in moonlight. The song "Moon River" resonating in my head for no reason at all, recalled from long ago. So much so that I found it and pressed play, letting Audrey Hepburn's performance repeat over and over again as I drank the moment in.
Who was I now? The character singing the song, or the river itself?
The answer came back, as both. Aren't we all. Our subconscious and the ever flowing current of life is the great river while we are both the observer and the jetsam on the current. Things began becoming very clear to me. Things that hadn't been clear for over a decade.
I began having intense realizations about who I was in the depths of myself and who I had allowed myself to develop into, which while not wretched or awful in any sense, showed an eventual bending to the world out there, the easy path taken over and over again, until the course was too far of the original intention.
There, in the moonlight, with the music playing I remembered all that I need to. The musicians that I looked up to were like shamans, showing the the path by their songs, their voices, their pieces.
I can hear the truth in the voice of Elvis, Roy, Johnny - in the symphonies of Beethoven, the lieder of Schubert. I can see it in the verses of the great poets and the prose of the great authors.
I was reminded of my aspirations as a young man. The ones that I have worked to develop ever since, although somehow holding a wavering confidence in my ability to perform. However, while I can't of course call myself anything near the greats, I am absolutely able to execute on the professional level, however have rejected pushing myself to those standards within my own life.
It's time for me (and maybe for you) to get right. To be honest. To remember our legacy and what we're really supposed to be doing. And then, consider what it might take to act on that? How can we move it forward?