Tonight, I'm off focus.
I can't seem to pull a string of thoughts together for anything, no matter how hard I try. For the last hour or so, I've been sitting here, trying to figure out what I should write about. But nothing is happening.
So, in the interest of honesty, I figured that it would be the most thing to do to talk about distraction. Those times when nothing comes easily and everything seems to telling you to give up, to throw in the towel and walk away.
Let's be honest. It's real. It happens. The question is, what do we do with it? Do we walk away and fall of our goals? Do we fight it, embracing the struggle? Do we learn to go with it, putting something down, generating some pages? Personally for me, the latter has always created the best result. It leaves me feel as if I've done something without being at war with myself, which always ends up being more draining than I anticipated.
Instead, I choose to go with it, writing about distraction and curiously looking at it. In this case, it's likely a combination of being overworked (which I am currently) and having eaten some carbs (which almost always scatters my mind, which I always seem to remember AFTER eating them).
So, while this writing is awfully convoluted and missing any particular direction rather that it's being lost, I encourage you to consider what you might do in your own creative life when you are scattered. In what ways might you still be able to create something when you can't perform at the level you expect of yourself?
I encourage you, as my writing mentors once encouraged me, to still get into the proverbial seat and take a crack at it. Make something happen. It helps train your mind and your will power. It helps you stick to the goal.
Maybe in the end, that's what this is all about tonight. Sticking with the process even when the going gets tough. Since I've set the goal of doing a daily podcast every day of 2018, I know that there will definitely be more times when it is hard to write or record it, but I'm committed to trying to overcome those obstacles as they arrive. I hope that you'll join me and I promise to always be honest about what I'm feeling.
I'm unfocused but yet, I'm here. That's how I know that I'll be here tomorrow...